Help me

Sometimes I think

I better dead than alive

I rather not exist in this world than

I have to keep bothersome the people around me.

And I began to ask Him

If today you still let me live what Your plan?

I sometimes feel tired of life

It seemed no longer able to live this life 

I was too tired with all that is happening in my life

Falling in love with someone that is not possible for me

Being a woman who always lived in the imagination that never happened

Dreaming of something beautiful but never happen

Is Your plan in my life? "Help me to be myself"

Help me to be more believe in the promise of Thy promise is always true

Help me to always look for your love than to love someone who is impossible.

Help me to be strong so I can live my life with passion and a smile

Help me to be more closer to You more than my friends in this world

I want thee always be with me in every moment and every life that I live

Because i know you hold my future and there is nothing will I fear in this life

You know Who I am, what the best for my life, You really know everything about me and my life 

So Lord better Thou take me to thee, I promise I'll give my life to thee for thy great plan from Heavenly Kingdom

The First Man

You're the first man that I knew

You're the first man in my life

You're the first man who hugged me

You're first man who I see in the world

You're the first man that I feel his love

You're the first man that I love in life

You're the first man who smiled at me

You're the first man who saw me cry
You're the first man who received me with my limitations

For everything you are the first in my life

Even though you abandoned me but you're still my dad
Although I was only a few years with you
And you never again be with me, for me you are my best dad
But now I feel really miss you I feel so lose you
I can't wait for that moment when Jesus comes back
My wish is to see you again when Jesus come back
The first person I wanted to see when Jesus comes back is you

All Thy Wonders

All Thy wonders
In my life really
makes me amazed
Thy miracles real for me
Even a small thing that is
An incredible miracle for me
Lord, Thou are really amazing
Thou art alone Just eligible glorified
Thou art alone the Lord are worthy to worship

What I Face Today Is A Great Plan From Above

In the morning I wake up...

And I realized I still alive

And in a good health

And I've loved in my life

It's a great blessing that I have everyday 

when I start my daily activity I will remind

To myself don't forget to thank to the Lord

Thank the Lord for what that His done for me

And think what a blessing that I have yesterday

And believe that what I face today is part of a greater plan from above

And give my tomorrow plan to Heavenly Father who loved me

DAMAI

Suddenly remembered this song

I really miss someone that often sing this song.

Ya He is my Daddy, I really miss him so much.

Jiwaku terisi oleh cinta-Nya

S'karang waktunya 'tuk mengenal-Nya

Dia mengatur semua baris

Lirik yang ada dalam simfoni

Dia b'ri padaku

Reff

Damai di hatiku

Seperti sungai yang mengalir

Damai, bagai hujan yang jatuh

Damai dari Bapa di dalam hidupku

Lepaskan jiwa ini dari rantai

Dan Dia datang, ku mengenal-Nya

Oh, ada cinta dalam namaNya

Ku diubah-Nya dalam simfoni

Dia b'ri padaku

My Way Was Not His Way

Sometimes I just

Want to be myself

I want to do my desire

I want to love in my own way

But I was doing a wrong way by do my own way

This is not the way of the Lord this is my way

My way was not His way because sometimes my way is sin

Sometimes I want He do my desire but I don't want to do His will

I realize now I need to let things go to make me realize how much He loves me

I realize now I should open up and give my life to Him to let Him working in my life

I Believe and Hold on Thy Promise

If they don't believe

That You will come soon

I will choose to always remain

Believe and hold on Thy promise

Even if those who are less believe it is

My family, my friends and even my loved ones

I will always choose to trust that Thy words is the truth

Whatever they say I will remain steadfast in my faith

For I believe the promise in Your words will certainly be fulfilled

Lord, help me to keep my heart and my faith so that I may always been faithful to You

Isn't God create it?

If love is
Painful
Why should
Have it in my heart?
If love tortured soul
Why should feel?
Isn't Love something beautiful?
Isn't God create it?
Then why if loved should hurt heart?
If loved is so painful why there is in my heart?
He made me feel it but why is it so hard to love?
Love why you came into a beautiful dream and makes me love him?
Why he should be present in every dream and make this heart wanted?
Every time he had in mind, in my eyes and in my heart, why is it so hurt?